A sign is hidden and sometimes we see no direction and seem to have little hope, but all we need to do is seek the Lord, and He will revive us.

Today I am drained, tired of the repetitiveness of life, of making mistakes and letting people down.

The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the Lord delivers him out of them all.

Psalm 34:18-19

I am waiting, waiting in a busy room with many people around me, although I am all alone because no one knows me and it feels like once again I have been sent to a cell to sit in silence. Sometimes someone makes small chat, but it is like the wind – it comes and it goes. You shoot the breeze and then move on. I am up again to sit in another room with many young people that do not know me and with whom I must get them to be as productive as possible whilst keeping them quiet before I move on.

My days can seem meaningless, pointless, like there is a never ending repetitiveness of trivial conversations which mean nothing, but just occasionally someone asks a question and you feel they are really asking, really seeking an answer that will move them on just one step. Sometimes I wish I could walk the whole route with them, walk the whole mountain, but I am trying to be led by the Lord and not my own ambitions.

But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts, and always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear;

1 Peter 3:15

Perhaps feeling empty I have to first sanctify the Lord in my heart, before I can give a reason for hope. If we who are supposed to have hope lose that hope then what good are we. We must start with God our rock, sanctify the Lord, praise Him, pray to Him, feel His presence as we go into what seems like pointless situations and God will work His purposes out.

Dear Lord, give us all purpose and make your presence ever so more clear to your children. When we let people down help us to rebuild those relationships and carry on life with the hope that comes from you, which your Son obtained through the cross. Amen