library of celsus

Day 282 I have fought with beasts at Ephesus

This is a picture of the library of Celsus at Ephesus in Turkey. I took this when I was there on holiday. I really didn’t understand the significance of the place at the time, otherwise I would have payed much more attention to the place. What an awesome place, even though many hundreds of years have gone by there are still huge blocks of evidence that this community existed and there is also much evidence coming out daily of the Jewish community there that Paul talks about.

These huge rocks are significant. They speak truth. Just like the library that was built here, it speaks of a people that where constantly seeking questions.

1 Corinthians 15:32

32 If, in the manner of men, I have fought with beasts at Ephesus, what advantage is it to me? If the dead do not rise, “Let us eat and drink, for tomorrow we die!”

There have been points this week where I felt I was doubting my faith – but each time I was led back to God. I seem to jump the gun at arriving at a verdict about God too many times, too quickly. These rocks have been there since the beginning of time, since God created them as he created matter on day one. Moses might have thought that he wasn’t going to get to the promised land, and on his deathbed he would have been forgiven for even questioning it then. But At Jesus’ transfiguration Moses and Elijah are brought back with Gods promised fulfilled. Moses truly arrived at the promise land but many, many years after he died in his physical body. God looks beyond death.

The bible is also there for us as a huge rock. It is clear truth.

If God doesn’t exist then life is not worth living. Paul states that if the dead do not rise, meaning if Jesus didn’t rise from the dead then life is simply worthless, we might as well party all night and ignore our morals. But asking these questions is what makes our faith alive and not dead. Asking questions challenges our faith and makes it stronger. If we didn’t ask these questions then our faith would be dead, it would be brainwashing. But to logically challenge your faith is good. God will not abandon you. There are many times people ask me “do I disbelieve this and that?” but really the question must be “Do I believe that the bible is the truth? The answer is a resounding – YES!

Creation, seven days, Adam and Eve, Noah, Moses, Jonah, Elijah, David and Goliath, but more importantly Jesus dying and rising from the dead because He is God.

This is a huge rock in my faith but the Holy Spirit guiding my life is another. He tells me today that questioning my faith, is not doubting my faith or doubting God, but building a living faith on a journey with God at my lead. God does not abandon us, never, even after death.

Discovering God, exploring life, questioning my faith are the journey I am on and I look forward to the daily battle with beasts that try to wrestle me away from my faith – but they do not understand – my faith, God’s Spirit is within, and with that knowledge even death has no grip on the battle.

Dear heavenly Father, bring your supernatural power down to the children that doubt, do not leave them lacking, but fill them with your Holy Spirit, through your Son Jesus Christ.



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