Day 230 praying with tears and agony of soul to the only one who would save him from premature death.

I was reminded yesterday that music is part of nature, through Daniel and Teresa at

Music is a huge part of my life but the concepts of composing; putting together harmonies (consonance) and disharmonies (dissonance) is something I am constantly exploring. The sunset has elements of dark and light and this makes a wonderful view.

I sometimes view the creation account as a musical story and J.R.R.Tolkien puts its brilliantly when he wrote the the story of Ainur in the Silmarillion- Here is a link.

I have tried to put some simple thoughts about my journey with Jesus, and I have done this in a poem whilst reflecting on some simple chord progressions. I commonly just sit loosing myself whilst playing any old chords and these sometimes help me to reflect or relax.

First bar
First bar

I look ahead North and see a way,
without a pause off I go
I hear an anguished cry from behind,
“Its not that way through the snow”

I see I’m wrong as footsteps mark
this beautiful snow is crisp and new
I turn back at once, perhaps I’ll pray
the Voice is there but I step on through

Second bar
Second bar

I bite my lip and carry on South,
“work harder” I hear myself yell. 

Push on higher and take the scree,
The voice cries “not that way, I can tell.”

So I turn around as I am wrong.
I prepare to face the word again

“I was wrong” I just say
but words just sound empty without all the pain

third bar
third bar

The voice is there, I pause for a moment
but neither listen for his guidance
I rush to the east, and climb a gate,
this way just leads to only silence

I turn around and see his eyes
I can not bear the pain he feels
So I carry on not looking up,
and miss the way he reaches out and heals

forth bar
forth bar

Down in the west, I trudge on alone
muttering my pain as I just whine,
I hear his words, but neither act,
neither turning or acknowledging any sign

I can go no more, the end has come
I turn to face my Lord for his words of shame
I see no guilt, or condemnation,
I just see love he feels with all the pain

Final Bar – unison note D

I can barely say the words, but I must,
“please forgive me” I just say.
“Already forgiven, now stay, eat, and drink,
the pain has gone and I did it in one day”

He was there at the beginning,
You could hear him all along

I played my part but he guided me on
the bass, the key, his note, his song

I also put some of my music (unfinished) to some sunsets and sunrises of this year.

Hebrews 5:7

Yet while Christ was here on earth he pleaded with God, praying with tears and agony of soul to the only one who would save him from premature death. And God heard his prayers because of his strong desire to obey God at all times.

Jesus is there all along, being our rock, our foundation, our guide, our comforter, our advocate, but all this time I need to turn to him and acknowledge him as our awesome God, Creator and Saviour.

Lord, guide me,
Let me cry out in anguish to your glory.
Let me taste your pain so that I may act.
Let me hear you and understand your guidance.
Let me praise you for all my blessings and act through your Word.
For you are Father, Son and Holy Spirit.


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